goodbye 2011, hello 2012~~

goodbye 2011!! u will be missed, but i would not say pls repeat yrself in 2012... 2011 to me, hasnt exactly been all good... but no one expects a full good year... however, i do expect something good...

perhaps i should stop expecting so much and just enjoy wat i have... like the 2 trips i took this year... the number of friends i still have partying with me on my bday...

i am 27 this year... not much savings to speak off... not much of a career to speak off... no other half to speak off... not much friends to speak off...

if u say i should be killing myself over the lack of things i have, i most prob will.. but den again, u only live once... might just die soon, i'll never know... but until den, i will live life my way...

suited or not suited for events

suited
1) i am apparently out-going enough to mingle around..
2) this is my first year doing events (excuse perhaps)
3) i am still learning (another excuse?)
4) have grown a lot more in the past year under events
5) impressed siblings with my organising skills

not suited
1) i am not organised enough
2) i am apparently the bottom of the food chain in the team
3) i apparently am not putting in enough effort
4) tough to justify me for promotion cuz i dun deserve it
5) i am careless
6) i am allowed to make some mistakes but not certain mistakes
7) i am not creative enough
8) i am too distracted


based on the reasons i have listed out, how can i still think i am suited for events... even though it has been my dream job when i first started out to work.. it was the job i really wanted after i joined VOR... and now that i have it, it might not turn out to be wat i expected... or that i might not be suited for it... even though i wished it could be...

since the economy is bad next year, i could take the next year and try again, see if i put in more effort, be more careful, be more alert, be more focused, perhaps i could improve on it... and see perhaps i could have a different appraisal same time next year...

and if it really doesnt improve, perhaps its time to start thinking of a change in job... going back to admin doesnt seem all that bad after all... i think... wondering if i could ever go back to admin after the times spent in events...

that is my new year's resolution... to ask me to think of anything else besides work now, is at the bottom of my list...

Left out once again

Am being left out for convention meeting once again. So I guess that means that I won't be going? If that is the case, someone pls tell me how to explain to the entire world that I'm not going along? This year was fine. I joined the dept late. wats the excuse this year? I'm not good enough to go? Or that my portfolio never said that I was going for overseas conventIon anyways?

Actually any reason im given for not going, be it not enough budget or wats not, ain't gonna satisfy my frustration. It would only increase it. And best part, economy ain't the best for the next 2 years. So it's either I move now or I get stuck with this comp for the next 2 years at least.

Actually, it is just my pride talking. But if u look at the numbers, this year they had like 4.5 peeps that went to Athens. Hod is counted as half cuz she needs to entertain. So 3 of team plus 1 section head. But my section head has left. And rumors has it that my hod is leaving too! No doubt there would be another hod to replace. But he/she ain't experienced wat! So it's only left to my 3 team mates? From 4.5 to 3? And I'm still not even allowed to go? Where is the logic in that?

I dun understand. I really dun. Is it really time to leave my comfort zone? After barely even 1 year in events?

disappointed and depressed...

i am not one who would change comp as often as others... i know that... however, i dun like being overlooked... there are 4 ppl in the unit... i could perhaps be speaking too fast.. we will know in 6 mths... lets just hope my nightmare doesnt turn out to be reality...

away for 3 wks!

being away for the next 3 wks, it should prove to be a release for me.. to gather my thoughts... and to get myself out of this depression mode i am in... and to find myself again.. to find the person that has gotten lost along the way... i would either come back happier, the same or the worst, more unhappy with the life i have now...

lets hope this holiday would be enjoyable as it is written on the cards... lets see shall we...

bro's wedding...

its quite troublesome to pack for wedding and hols at the same time.. need to pack formal and informal clothes...

will be having dinner with the in-laws the day we reach... next day, pre-wedding rehearsal... day after, wedding... day after wedding, lunch with in-laws...

so thats like 4 smart casual piece of clothings i need to bring up? i have decided to bring only 1 dress.. thats for wedding... if i ish going clubbing and wats not, the rest of the more formal clothings would just have to do...

there is apparently gonna be dancing.. mentioned it to mum and she was almost like fainting... think she didnt expect that coming... hurhur... this should be fun...

note to self... bring adaptor, phone charger, cam charger, spare memory card, portable phone charger... am i missing anything else?

ps. i hate joel! he said the wt i lost over the past year, i am going to the US to put on another 50kg... idiot!!!

Collegue

Went for a exhibition today and for site visit after. At MBS. With a colleague from section.

After that, happy hr. Was telling her alot of things. Girl talks usually involve men. And while she may be one of the coolest mum I have ever met, she does believe in happily ever after. And from the looks of it, she has it.

So the topic of boys came about. She asked me wat is my requirements. I said must be taller than me. So she asked me how tell I was. Luckily the ride came to an end. If not I won't be able to continue the conversation.

Topics during happy hr was about work and family. Quite nice to hang out with her. We should hang out more often. Quite a cool lady.

My brother

So my brother has just spent 1 mth of hols here back in his home town. 1 mth pass real fast. In a blink of an eye, he went back to his life in the US and to get ready for his wedding.

Granted, my bro is not exactly the most gracious host. Refusing to even host his family when they fly over to attend his wedding. However, I believe that his fiancé and my future sista-in-law-to-be has changed him for the better. He is hen pecked and will listen to his wife-to-be. And it also helps that she is also hoping to please us.

Eg I asked her abt her amazon prime cuz I wanted to buy my iPhone cover and I can't possibly buy 3 just to waive the delivery charges. So bro suggested that I ask Ann if her amazon prime can help waive the delivery charges. Honestly, I was quite reluctant to, firstly, amongst the family, I'm prob the person to talk the least to her. Even father has talked to her more than me. So to ask a favor from her is a bit bad. However, the desire to have the iPhone cover and the fact that she is going to be part of the family soon, I decided to just email her and cc the entire family.

Not only did she explain how her amazon prime worked, she even told me to just tell bro wat I wanted and she will get him to order. Like woah~~ bro didn't offer to help me order can. Nice~~

of coz~~ not all things are peachy, I was lying on the sofa one a few nites after, bro came out and gave me a light kick and said cuz of me, he got scolded by Ann. Rofl. Not my fault. But I was feeling a tad guilty. Which is why I have offered to help him find printer for his wedding invitations. And the photographer and videographer.

1 wk has past. And I do miss him. I miss the time that we spent watching "How I met your mother". Every nite at 11.30 he would run out saying How I met your mother How I met your mother. And we would change channel and watch together. And almost every nite, I would complain, 9 seasons Liao and still haven meet the mother yet. And every nite he would tell me the story is now not abt him. It is abt the other char in the series as well.

The mth went by faster than I had imagined. For the last wk, I promised myself that I would spend more time at home with him. That obviously didn't happen.

So when we arranged to have sista's bday dinner, i had to make myself free. But to celebrate sista's bday, we went to paramount hotel for dinner. And since I was at heeren and he was PS, I told him I was gonna take a bus. And asked him to board the same bus as me. So he did, and when he first boarded the bus, he was fanatically looking for me. When he finally saw me, he gave me the silliest grin that I couldn't help but grin back. And when he moved closer to me, he gave me yet another silly grin that i couldnt resist and gave him peace sign. I swear, ppl who dunnoe he is my bro, would think he is my bf. Cuz i was seated, and when he stood beside me, I helped him to hold his bag of clothes. but den again, not alot of ppl have seen my bro before. And not alot of ppl know he is my bro.

On the nite he was suppose to fly back, i promised that I would send him to the airport. So that I could spend more time with him. Unforch, SQ moved his flight 1 hr earlier so means he had to leave earlier. Which means I couldn't send him off. Which i was very upset abt. Was cursing and swearing on the way back. But when I got back, he was still around. He changed his flight to the next day cuz of the strike. Which was good for me. =D

But the thing that impressed me most was when his flight was cancelled, he specially gave me a lift down to tamp mall. He didn't have to do that, but he did. And I love him for it. =)

So i kept my promised and drove him to the airport the next day. Sent him off at the airport and got my hug which I didn't get when he came back. Cuz when I came home from work, he said I was too sweaty and he didn't wanna hug me.

Us 3 siblings didn't spend much time together. But i remembered the 1 nite i was lying on the floor watching zui hou, bro came over and put his foot on my backside. Sis walked past and decided to do the same thing on the other backside. Sista said she looks like a whale.. bro said, she looks like a whale stranded on the beach. And after, he said "quick! Roll her to the water! Save the whale!" and they both pretended to try to roll me. And I was protesting pretty loudly and shouting for them to let go off me.

So~~ when we are bro's wedding, I will try to see if we can get a nice family picture and I will post it on Fb as my profile pic!!